I'm probably showing my age, but do you remember this line from one of Tom Petty's songs? I can just hear him singing it now in that unique voice of his. I remember how much I liked his music at the time it was a hit, but it's funny how things change. Now, when I hear this song, his voice sounds kind of "whiny".
I've come to a recent conclusion: I'm done waiting. Well, I guess it's not a new conclusion since I think I've actually been done waiting for a long time now and actively started NOT waiting. When you're waiting, you're not living!
The first instance that comes to mind of this is how much joy I've gained from participating in community theater, something that just might result in appearances in professional theater one day. Theater is something that I've always wanted to do, yet a few years ago, my attitude was that I had to WAIT until I was thinner. I found that I was putting off a lot of things while waiting for that magical time. If I could just lose a few more pounds.....
Today, I'm on a weight-loss journey, I'm on a plateau right now, but it'll start to come off again, but the weight loss didn't start until AFTER I auditioned and received my first part. It'd been 15 years since I'd even thought about auditioning until I'd finally had enough of the waiting.
Have you ever heard that saying "Don't put off until tomorrow what you can do today?" A truer statement has not been uttered as far as I'm concerned. If at all possible, find a balance and pursue your dreams.
Last night, decompressing while watching one of my favorite shows, NCIS Los Angeles, one of the characters, Hetty, had this line to say:
"People worry too much about making the wrong choices when they should really worry about not making any."
Putting off making a choice until the time is perfect, is just another form of waiting. Waiting isn't living.
Feel and be blessed in all that you do today!
Until later...
Friday, October 01, 2010
Monday, September 20, 2010
Partly cloudy with some chance of rain & glimpes of sun
Isn't life a lot like the weather? No matter how much they try to get the weather report right, there's always the element of unpredictability.
I've been in the pseudo state of sleep for about an hour now and finally decided it's no use. It's better to just get up and write it out.
We had a showing of Letters to God at church last night. I'd prepared myself. I knew that it was going to be sad, but I wasn't prepared for all the feelings that it would evoke and that probably explains the wakefulness. I can identify with Tyler, the character of the movie. I know what it means to write out your prayers and your feelings.
It's good to see a movie like this from time to time. It's a fact that I adore my happy endings and make a considerable effort only to seek or surround myself with things that are going to have only that outcome or what I perceive as that end result. Sometimes life just isn't like that. It brings home that one should be looking for the happiness in each moment.
For the last two weeks, Pastor Kirk has given some really awesome sermons that have certainly spoke to me in unexpected ways. I mean, I've heard their message before, but just not quite in that manner as I understand it at this point. Isn't that one of the most wonderful qualities of God's word? It's revealed to us in so many ways at just the right time for understanding. Who's to say that this same message won't be spoke again with even more understanding of different points the next time.
Points in brief:
Last week, Pastor Kirk spoke about having faith like a child based on Matthew 18:1-6; We are called to have faith like a child. Not that we should behave as children, but that we should believe as children. With every fiber of our beings. Isn't that how a child believes and accepts?
This week, Pastor Kirk's sermon topic consisted of the "rain" we experience in our lives. Simply because we're Christians living a life of faith, doesn't mean that our lives are going to be perfect. Our faith needs to be like the house built on the rock and not the sand covered in scriptures Matthew 7:24-27
As to how this relates to why I'm awake at 5:30 a.m. writing? The movie last night...Letters to God...I chose it based on a whim of what was going to be released soon on around the time for the next movie night. I find it very interesting how the story line of this movie has also related to the sermon topics of the last couple of weeks, but I had no way of knowing beforehand what those topics or what points Pastor Kirk would choose to lift out of them.
God's plan? Well, we might not know what it is, we might not even be able to see any elements of it and our own free will might cause us to make decisions that will, for the time being, interrupt or cause it to take longer to come full circle. But....I have absolute faith that no matter where I'm at, no matter what is going on...He is with me.
Until later...
I've been in the pseudo state of sleep for about an hour now and finally decided it's no use. It's better to just get up and write it out.
We had a showing of Letters to God at church last night. I'd prepared myself. I knew that it was going to be sad, but I wasn't prepared for all the feelings that it would evoke and that probably explains the wakefulness. I can identify with Tyler, the character of the movie. I know what it means to write out your prayers and your feelings.
It's good to see a movie like this from time to time. It's a fact that I adore my happy endings and make a considerable effort only to seek or surround myself with things that are going to have only that outcome or what I perceive as that end result. Sometimes life just isn't like that. It brings home that one should be looking for the happiness in each moment.
For the last two weeks, Pastor Kirk has given some really awesome sermons that have certainly spoke to me in unexpected ways. I mean, I've heard their message before, but just not quite in that manner as I understand it at this point. Isn't that one of the most wonderful qualities of God's word? It's revealed to us in so many ways at just the right time for understanding. Who's to say that this same message won't be spoke again with even more understanding of different points the next time.
Points in brief:
Last week, Pastor Kirk spoke about having faith like a child based on Matthew 18:1-6; We are called to have faith like a child. Not that we should behave as children, but that we should believe as children. With every fiber of our beings. Isn't that how a child believes and accepts?
This week, Pastor Kirk's sermon topic consisted of the "rain" we experience in our lives. Simply because we're Christians living a life of faith, doesn't mean that our lives are going to be perfect. Our faith needs to be like the house built on the rock and not the sand covered in scriptures Matthew 7:24-27
As to how this relates to why I'm awake at 5:30 a.m. writing? The movie last night...Letters to God...I chose it based on a whim of what was going to be released soon on around the time for the next movie night. I find it very interesting how the story line of this movie has also related to the sermon topics of the last couple of weeks, but I had no way of knowing beforehand what those topics or what points Pastor Kirk would choose to lift out of them.
God's plan? Well, we might not know what it is, we might not even be able to see any elements of it and our own free will might cause us to make decisions that will, for the time being, interrupt or cause it to take longer to come full circle. But....I have absolute faith that no matter where I'm at, no matter what is going on...He is with me.
Until later...
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
I'm complicated and I like it
When they, whomever "they" might be, talk about men having a mid-life crisis, it's always been a mystery to me. I mean, really, don't we all go through that at one point or another? I don't think you can exclude women. I think it's just different. It's like re-discovering oneself all over again only with better knowledge under your belt about how life really works.
I'm not talking about cynicism. Being cynical, well that's just not part of my make-up. It'd stop the whole dreaming and discovery process because it's just not a quality that creates the proper attitude for dreaming, believing and for that matter, living a life of faith. I'm not saying that I never have negative thoughts, but I can assure you that after I process them for a little bit, I throw them right out the window.
When you get down to it, everything that you do, faith, love, marriage, relationships, emotions, belief, treatment of others, attitude.....it's all about choices.
Sure...you can't stop feelings or emotions. They're something that just happen and sometimes it takes a while to figure out the why of them. The only thing in your control regarding this is how you treat others when you're feeling them. For me, sometimes if I'm upset about something, if I'm not really sure how I feel about it, then it's best to limit what's said until I've sorted out my own feelings. Then, I can phrase my concerns in the proper format before speaking. No one ever said that I had to be a doormat simply because I'm a Christian. The problem with delaying reactions and talking about them immediately is often others will assume how you feel and act upon their assumptions. They go in "attack" mode and make the argument or disagreement totally about them, not willing to even look at the other persons point of view.
I guess what I'm saying is that as I've gotten older, I'm different in how I handle things. I've discovered more about myself in the last few years than I ever thought imaginable. I don't have to be the "perfect" mother or the "perfect" wife or the "perfect" anything. I can be who I am and not apologize for it in any way, shape, or form. In a disagreement, I'm more willing to wait and see rather than attack and let the chips fall where they may. I choose not to act rashly whenever possible and control some of my emotions the best that I can, though sometimes I recognize that God uses that passion and I try to be always conscious of that. Yet because I sometimes hold back, there's a whole other set of consequences. Even when we make the best of choices, there can be consequences that are not the best.
Sometimes I do wonder why on earth we always have to learn things the hard way. Everything is so much clearer in my 40's than it was in my 20's. Thank goodness I never have to go back there.
Until later...
I'm not talking about cynicism. Being cynical, well that's just not part of my make-up. It'd stop the whole dreaming and discovery process because it's just not a quality that creates the proper attitude for dreaming, believing and for that matter, living a life of faith. I'm not saying that I never have negative thoughts, but I can assure you that after I process them for a little bit, I throw them right out the window.
When you get down to it, everything that you do, faith, love, marriage, relationships, emotions, belief, treatment of others, attitude.....it's all about choices.
Sure...you can't stop feelings or emotions. They're something that just happen and sometimes it takes a while to figure out the why of them. The only thing in your control regarding this is how you treat others when you're feeling them. For me, sometimes if I'm upset about something, if I'm not really sure how I feel about it, then it's best to limit what's said until I've sorted out my own feelings. Then, I can phrase my concerns in the proper format before speaking. No one ever said that I had to be a doormat simply because I'm a Christian. The problem with delaying reactions and talking about them immediately is often others will assume how you feel and act upon their assumptions. They go in "attack" mode and make the argument or disagreement totally about them, not willing to even look at the other persons point of view.
I guess what I'm saying is that as I've gotten older, I'm different in how I handle things. I've discovered more about myself in the last few years than I ever thought imaginable. I don't have to be the "perfect" mother or the "perfect" wife or the "perfect" anything. I can be who I am and not apologize for it in any way, shape, or form. In a disagreement, I'm more willing to wait and see rather than attack and let the chips fall where they may. I choose not to act rashly whenever possible and control some of my emotions the best that I can, though sometimes I recognize that God uses that passion and I try to be always conscious of that. Yet because I sometimes hold back, there's a whole other set of consequences. Even when we make the best of choices, there can be consequences that are not the best.
Sometimes I do wonder why on earth we always have to learn things the hard way. Everything is so much clearer in my 40's than it was in my 20's. Thank goodness I never have to go back there.
Until later...
Friday, April 23, 2010
Especially Blessed!
Right now, I'm hydrating myself so I can sing pretty tonight when the Cuyahoga Falls Community Chorus performs at Cardinal Village. I'm working on some AVON stuff in my nice, new office and watching my girls play with their new hamsters!
I had a lovely time doing a Smooth Minerals Makeover for a new bride today and one of her attendants. Congrats to Rebecca as she enters married bliss and though we know it's not always "bliss" it is a gift to find that special partner to spend your life with and worth the work. After picking up Mackenzie, we went to Handels for ice cream! I stopped at Drug Mart, where again I received major compliments on my hair! So, of course, I left an AVON book with the cashier who was so tickled when I showed her my hair and said,"Oh, we don't have anyone serving us right now!" All in all....a beautiful day, plus, the music on The Fish today has been awesome. I heard all the right songs, all day long, just when I needed to hear them. I'm blessed all the time, but today.....I am especially so!
Until later!
P.S. I posted some video of my new "hair" on my FB page and I'll soon be uploading it to my AVON blog!
I had a lovely time doing a Smooth Minerals Makeover for a new bride today and one of her attendants. Congrats to Rebecca as she enters married bliss and though we know it's not always "bliss" it is a gift to find that special partner to spend your life with and worth the work. After picking up Mackenzie, we went to Handels for ice cream! I stopped at Drug Mart, where again I received major compliments on my hair! So, of course, I left an AVON book with the cashier who was so tickled when I showed her my hair and said,"Oh, we don't have anyone serving us right now!" All in all....a beautiful day, plus, the music on The Fish today has been awesome. I heard all the right songs, all day long, just when I needed to hear them. I'm blessed all the time, but today.....I am especially so!
Until later!
P.S. I posted some video of my new "hair" on my FB page and I'll soon be uploading it to my AVON blog!
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